I miss you.....

Have you ever missed someone and  they haven't even left yet? Perhaps its because I am very familiar with that longing and that feeling of wanting someone to be close to you yet they are so far away, completely gone, or just plain out of reach. Its a feeling of being completely and totally alone. Some are blessed to not experience such a strong feeling yet others are cursed with having strong emotional feelings of loneliness. I think Michael Jackson had it....regardless of how many people surround you, love you, or are there for you that feeling of being alone is ever present.

I have always had a fear of being alone. Hated it. Deplored it. Still do...hate it, deplore it, have it. So, when someone you love leaves for awhile its 10x the anxiety thrust upon you. Its like having a fear of spiders and then 10 of them being placed on your body....yes its that bad! Breath in breath out....I will survive but it will be very hard yet the reward of seeing that person again after that short term displacement is priceless.

~E